2019 was a weird year. There are three major things that happened and I’ll talk about them in this article.
1. I’ve been diagnosed with borderline personality disorder
I’ve always been acting weird towards other people, with a high dose of impulsivity, but I never knew why.
I found about borderline personality disorder in an unexpected way – on Tinder. I didn’t know what it was and while I was swiping left and right on tinder, I remember reading at this girl profile that she has BPD and she was under treatment.
I went to google, search what BPD means and when I read all the symptoms is when I realized that BPD may be what I have. I researched more about this and found communities with people with BPD and talked with them. I was getting closer and closer.
Later, I decided to talk to a few psychotherapists just to confirm what I already knew: I have BPD.
That moment was so good because finally I was able to understand my problem and had a starting point for solving this. At this moment I’m looking for a professional who can help me and meditate so I can at least tone down my BPD.
If you want to know more about what BPD is, here is a playlist on YouTube with three videos I’ve found that describes BPD pretty good.
2. I lost weight – about 15 kilograms
By the end of 2018, I was 92 kg. One week ago, in the middle of December 2019, I was 77 kg.
I’m so proud of this and I’ve been able to lose this weight without too much effort. Here’s a conclusion I’ve reached regarding losing weight: it doesn’t matter how much you run, but it matters how much you eat.
I was trying to lose weight by having intense physical activity, without trying to limit my food in any way. And I tested how much I can mix physical activities with eating so I can lose weight on a regular basis.
I’ll talk more about this in an article I’ll have published in January 2019 but until then you should know that it’s possible to lose weight without having to put too much effort into it.
3. I printed my books
It feels amazing to be able to help others with what I write. It makes me happy.
This year I decided to make one more step towards my goal and print all my books so more people can benefit from my work.
I printed 250 copies of the following books: From Brain to Heart, Shift to Passion, Subconscious Mechanics, How to Change Your Life, and The Power of 30-day Challenges.
They will be available for purchase at the beginning of 2020. If you want to know the specific date, just make sure you’re part of The Tribe of Optimists. I’ll send you an email when the books are ready to be delivered.
Improvements in 2020?
I don’t really want to improve anything in 2020.
I feel like I’ve been improving myself like a mad man in the last years and I’m tired.
From now on I just want to focus on making sure my books get to the right people. From now on, at least during 2020, I want to focus on helping others more and share everything I learned in the last few years.
Improvements will come anyway because I’m always setting myself to learn new things. But this time improvements are not part of my goals and they will be just the result of achieving my goals.
With love and optimism,